Wednesday, May 16, 2012

All in one

There are days when
I do not have you with me
and looking around
when I see men, women, children,
I feel
how beautifully others
are living in love.
There are days, when I dont
have friends around me
and looking around, when I
find myself surrounded by
scores of unknown people,
I feel
there are so many friends
whom I have not yet met.
There are days when I dont
speak for hours, and closing my
eyes then, I feel
how deep our mind is
as I drown into it,
finding friends, love and
my own self in it.

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

A rainbow and the rain


The other day, as I
started to paint your face,
my brush strokes made
a rainbow, unaware that it
was a rainy day and
my dreams on the canvas
might wash away and flow
into small streams of joy.

And it rained.

As I watched melted colours
dance on the water,
I waited, as I always did,
for the sun to come up
which it did, and
by the course of
natural reasons, vapourised
the rainbow water into
millions of floating clouds.
This, so happened,
So that I could  paint your
many faces in the sky,
just so, if it rains again,
I will be showered with
in your colours.

Monday, May 14, 2012

Ballerina

I can feel it,
when you light
up with your eyes
these offerings of mine,
I can very well, too, feel
you breathe, and also
the clouds in your heart
which sums up and drops
as rain.
It doesn't matter any more
if I cannot be here when
you come, touch and caress
these pages,
as unlike you,
I have not loved you incognito,
but have been loud enough
in these pages of love,
so that you can come and
kiss me quietly, and then leave
like a ballerina on her toes.

Guru

The room was dark. There was a lovely fragrance moving about the room. And there was smoke from a pipe. Behind the pipe, and behind a huge desk, sat a very strange phenomenon. Korah Mathen. That was his name. It was January 1982. The Indian city of Ahmedabad was still having its winter bites.

I was asked to sit and as the man stood up to check some files, I noticed that he was wearing a pair of blue jeans. I could't see whether he had a shirt or a T-shirt, as the upper part of his body was wrapped with a huge shawl, or, what in India is known as a chaddar, a kind of a wrap around for the upper part of the body. The color of the chaddar was undefinable, sort of dark brown, and yet not brown, made of  a very rough fabric of coarse material, but warm and comfortable. It was supposed to be the first interview of my life. Actually it was, and incidentally, it was also my last interview. Korah Mathen was connected to the Marketing Department of this huge cloth manufacturing company in Ahmedabad, India and he was also the Chief Executive of an arm of the company which handled rural development projects in the state of Gujarat. 

I couldn't see his eyes, as he wore tinted glasses. I saw his slightly uneven teeth, because he was biting his pipe, which constantly blew smoke towards the ceiling. He was a good listener. He allowed me to speak whatever I wanted to speak about myself. And then finally when I stopped, or he could manage to stop me, he started with disagreeing to everything that I said. I was quite amazed. What was I doing there? Was I called for an interview, or, for a debate. I was there inside that room for about an hour, and all the while we were disagreeing and arguing. 

Since during the first five minutes of our arguments, I gave up any hope of getting the job, I sat back and enjoyed the debate. Korah Mathen was deeply involved in making me understand his way of thoughts. And I was equally eager not to try to understand what he was saying. 

Finally a time came when both of us were tired; he was tired because of failing to make me see the light and I, was tired as I could not see those lights because of my young age. I got up from the chair and thanked him for the wonderful discussion and said goodbye to him. He stood up, looked at me, shook my hand and said very coldly "Come and join from tomorrow. You are hired".

That was the beginning. Next eight years he worked on me, against wishes of all others, who wanted to see me out of the company. He was my first Guru of management and there has been none after that. I can say today, that all that I learnt in school and college would have gone to waste, had I not met this man Kora Mathen. A very strange man, ferocious in his beliefs but dynamic in delegation. He helped shape my future, putting high end ambitions in my head and encouraging me to do and explore what I loved doing and exploring. I just did that with increasing hunger for knowledge.

That was a very long time ago. But I met him yesterday. After many years. Korah Mathen, his wife Sujah, and their daughter Nidhi. Their son Dibith is in Dubai. Sujah treated me with those very well known brownies that she used to make so well. Korah is retired now, but looked the same eager faced traveler. 

This page is not for writing a story about Korah Mathen. But this is just to express my gratitude for a person, who, I feel, played a very vital role in shaping my future. Korah had put that burning desire in me in a time when I was still inside a mould, unsure of the final form.

So, if you are reading this Mr. Mathen, please know that I am dedicating this page to you for what you have done for me, and for being my best Guru. Thank you.

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Pollen


Standing on a veranda
Facing the new sun
Coming up slowly, I
Basked in its orange glow
That washed my toxins.
Toxins that I gathered
During the long travel
In the dark side of the
Night, needlessly
Intensified by moon, while
Walking in unknown
Territories of life.
In this, the potholes bled
My feet, as
Your hands gave me
The healing touches to
Soothe mind and body
Et al. Now as the morning
Came up, it brought me
The ruthless truth of
This journey, where all
But you flew away like
Pollen infecting the
Mankind, telling me how
Allergy also forms a habit
In us, without which we
Don't feel like
We are living.